My New Years Non-Resolution

Is it possibly to stumble upon your own blog? I think I just did and as such will be recommitting myself to this channel of questionably useful content. As a catalyst, I'm going to commit to a challenge posted on CopyBlogger. Write for 20 minutes every day -- no editing, just first draft quality stuff. Further, I'm going to post, for better or worse, here. Its about to get interesting in this neck of the Internet woods. Start the timer.

Day 1

My third child, Micah, is exceptional. Every parent thinks that about their child/children, but I'm confident that anyone who knows Micah would share that observation. He is of a certain intense or, as my wife counsels me to say, spirited quality.

Really everything about him is this way. His emotions are big, whether it be happiness and excitement or sadness and anger. He is extremely insightful for a newly minted 4 year old. His physicality is big also. He matches his older brother and sister in endurance and seemingly brute strength. He also has intense bouts of asthma that have ended with multiple day visits to the hospital. His eyes can be so big that they are all I see when looking at him. They can either infuriate me in their obstinate glare or melt me in their tender gaze. 

Micah requires an entirely different engagement than Elijah and Amelia. Its more intentional of course, I cannot passively interact with him. He will not accept it. Yet, I can not match his intensity either. He requires an eye-level, calm, full engagement or nothing. There is no in between, or so it feels that way.

I have a sense that the stakes are the highest with Micah. He is destined for something that will make a big splash however unconventional it may be. To be totally honest I pray frequently that I would not be the stumbling block that causes him to flame out as an adult. As I said before, its all or nothing for him and I suspect his life will carry that theme always.